((((((((((((((RozG)))))))))))))))))
I don't know how hard it must be for you.... because I myself count myself lucky that I got off so easily... yet it still hurts.
But it's okay to be hurt, even though it's so difficult to learn that.
Post as much as you want to to let the pain out, you are NEVER a loser or weak because of what happened to you. You are strong, stronger than I think I could be.
Safe hugs.