Thanks so much ___zh.
yes, we're still around but everything's caving in again and i'm trying to find a way out of a lot of dilemmas.
We stopped going to T because of family thinking it made us worse but nobody (inside or out) is happy with the results-
It's so hard. i hate the way parts act. i'm in trouble now for saying that. i need to listen to my advice to others- like in the other thread - but it's- so - hard to do.

i so much wish that there wasn't a fight inside about everything. Yesterday and the past week we have totally lost it in public as well as with family.

we left a hysterical S.O.S.message on my psychiatrist's answering machine. He's on vacation.
Trying to get disability, trying to have help to go on and not to lose hope.

thank you for remembering me,
kerria