i still haven't. BECAUSE!!! because .... cuz i .... um...
DLIFJIJDFLIJDFLIJLJlfij!!! because i don't want to bug her.
Because I don't want to call her today and have her randomly answer again....
Because I think that there is a chance that a check in (aka someone caring about me) after this scary planned parenthood exam would more than likely result in more cutting as it often does.
Somehow having another individual see the pain and fear, acknowledge it, and say it's ok to experience that just makes it all the more unbarable.