I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. I know how hard it can be and how hard the feelings can be.

If you are feeling that badly please get some support right away. Call a friend, family member, t, Dr. , ER as a few suggestions. Here is a link to some online resources. http://psychcentral.com/helpme.htm Please know that there are those out here who understand these feelings and care. Please stay safe.

BB