k, I've missed here, I feel normaler here, safe and understood, phew I never want to wait so long again without reading your posts. Some of the 200 i've missed were so cool, So, I'm mostly caught up and well things have been so hard.
My husband said, he didn't mean the way I take things. I was hurt and he said, he didn't mean it that way. grrr, I can't hardly understand normal everyday talk, I don't know what to do about this. He might be right, It's not his fault his face changes to evil, so I guess right there he's lost most of the battle, I don't know. But now he thinks he's figured out what might help me not go of on a rampage of anger, I know this will sound funny but I'm really asking cause he said, well ask if you all think this might work, cause I said a plain NO.
So he thinks he will atatch a Zapper thingie to me, OMG i can't believe I'm saying thiss, k so he can give a ( not mean zap) gentle buzz or what ever if I start to switch, or did, i guess. He said, he has to find something I respone to cause I make him look very bad in front of the kids if I'm not the ME he loves, Which he right, The angry me is mean- protective9of the children) at all costs-and scary and dosn't think shes married to him and would like to leave. My H never hurts the kids by any physical means, yells tho, AAnd he says I have anger issues, OOP's i'm blabing, anyways, really truely I said to H i would ask, he thinks he's on to something.