ty all .... Lost of course we are friends ..... KD ty for explaining. i miss my parents. sometimes, when i need to cry, i just want to go to my mum and have her put her arms around me and treat me like a daughter. that will never ever happen. i see proud parents who would do anything for their kids and i crave for that attention off them still .... i'd do anything for mine, i'm nursing my daughters broken heart right now ..... and secretly i want my mum to do this for me.

my friends dad cant understand why they are like they are with me .... he has een a dad to me more than my own .... and Maggie, before she died bless her.

My family really dont like my parents, and that hurts too, ecause i was so close to MY grandparents, it hurts that my parents aren't interested in my kids.... my kids both did really well in their exams, really well, my step brother told my dad .... he never even called to say well done or how proud he was of them ..... i'm 43, and i am upset over this still .... will it ever get better? It makes it harder knowing i could NEVER treat MY children like this, therefore it tells me just how much my parents must hate me ...... what did i do wrong?

distressed, Jx