(((((((((((( jinny )))))))))))))

I can so understand that what you want and need from your parents the most is something that you will not receive and how it hurts to the core. I know it's something you struggle with so very much. I also know that by holding onto this pain so tightly, you are not giving yourself the chance to heal and move ahead. I'm not saying that you should not feel what you are feeling. What I am saying is that there comes a time when we have to accept what it is, face it for what it is (your parents are not capable for whatever reason to give you what you need and want) and KNOW that it is not because they hate you, but because they are flawed (a real human problem).

It's so hard when we don't have the answers to our questions. It's hard to accept, and we just have to push forward to find "our" answers to ourselves. Maybe in time we will find the answers from those who have hurt us...maybe we won't. In order to continue our own healing from inside, we must let go, stop holding on to that pain so tightly. If we don't let go, then we keep re-injuring ourselves over and over again and at what expense?

You are not pathetic....you are trying to find your way. We all are on our paths and trying to find our ways. Maybe you can change your thought pattern - instead of it being harder for you because you know you couldn't treat your own children as you have been treated, you can realize that it's BETTER and GOOD that you don't treat your children the same way. You have taken the negative and turned it into a positive! That's what life is about at times.....finding the ways of turning the bad around to find the good that can come from it.

We are all "works in progress".


sabby