(((((((((((((((((((Sabby))))))))))))))))))) i know you are right. Maybe i just cant move on .... then what? maybe i'm not strong enough to move on..... never been strong ever. So this just makes me pathetic ... i listen to everyones advice, but putting that advice into action is so hard ..... why do i even cling onto the fact one day they might change. Yes i have broken that awful chain of neglect, but it still makes me feel %#@&#! the fact my own parents dont love me. how can i love myself if they never loved me, how can i expect anyone else to love me if i dont love myself .....it's all impossible .... i know you must get so frustrated listening to the same old crap all the time .... especially when you give such good advice ....

sorry ,,,, sometimes i feel like a waste of oxygen and right now is sometimes .... me