((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( kiya )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Not "poor T"! You are doing So well, and T obviously loves you (remember the hug in the lobby??). You are doing just what she asked you do do - tell her if something comes up (like you did in the e-mail) and call if you SI (you did). You are keeping up your end of the deal in the therapy relationship, and so is she ("I'm here") - and that is how relationships are built.

I bet T is very proud of you for reaching out in those two situations. It's uncomfortable because it's new, but that's how we grow. I always feel really uncomfortable for a while when I try something new - even something healthy and "normal" - but I get used to the feeling and it's easier the next time.

(((((((((((((((((((((((( kiya )))))))))))))))))))))))))) You are doing great. Be gentle with you. Give yourself some grace.