i sat here just now reading your post..and i thought to myself..what an amazing person you are...like many of us you are lost..but yet you still worry about everyone and want to take care of everyone...to me it shows what an amazing heart you have...yes sometimes when we want so much to help others it drowns us..i do agree with silver..you need to care for yourself..depression is so hard...but im sure there has to be a brighter day tomorrow ..i will keep you in my thoughts and look forward to seeing more of you here...best wishes always...one step at a time...