You know when you don't think things can any worse....but sure enough....................................

Sometimes you just feel, enough already. Every test, every mri, every......nothing shows up (other than things already known about) and the pain goes on. I take 3 different muscle relaxants and 2 pain pills and that doesn't include my psych meds. And all these pain patches all over body. Big surprise -- nothing works!

The depression has taken a turn for the worse. I'm stuck sitting here. I don't do anything (and I know that's wrong), I sit, I don't see, I don't hear, I don't feel.

Guess I should chalk it up to old age. The Drs. do.

Angel of Darkness
I know you are there
Out of view perhaps,
but always watching
For when it’s time to go

Another night of torture
The hurting so intense
I wake to screams of pain
Glad no one can hear
I hope my time comes soon

Be patient say the doctors
We’re here to see you through
Strong pain meds are given
Steroids and muscle relaxants too
But still the screams get through

Through all the tests and scans
There is not a single clue
But since you’re never far away
This you already knew

Angel of Darkness
I know you are there
You’ve seen the contorted body
Heard the piercing screams of pain
What am I suppose to do

Angel of Darkness
Listen to my prayer
Get me out of here
Take me to a better place
Where there is no pain to fear.