Oh noooo-body knows,the trouble's I've seen! first off, just look at my avatar, thats my real pic! I haven't worked in over a year for more than a week or so, my car was re-posessed a couple of months ago and I'm currently about 4 months behind on my mortgage. (forclosure soon) I can't go back to driving a truck because my former employer told lies about me to the driver advocacy council (D.A.C. who are "paid liars") and now even though they are lies no one will hire me. I live in an extremely remote area where there are no jobs (not even for a clown like me!) I recently spent 10 days in the county jail because I am poor and can't pay my child support for my 20 year old daughter who's in college and never talks to me. My wife is an LPN who cannot hold down a job because of her social anxiety issues,(among other things,there's a can of worms)..well,thats all I can think of right, OH wait, did I mention I'm flat broke and that my pastor had to give me 20.00 for gas money so I could come back to church? Sometimes I'm tempted to feel sorry for myself, or to be depressed,or angry,at times I'm also tempted to feel anxious about running out of gas on the road and being stranded,but you know what? I'm not...when a person has a deep faith in something bigger than themselves or bigger than "the world" a "thing" that you believe has a "positive regard" for you and that cares for you, the circumstances of this world seem very temporary and even can have great signifigance and meaning to us. During times of pain and personal hardship we learn stuff about who we are,who's in charge,and how we should go through life...I'm really thankful, despite my situation, for the relationships which have become much deeper, the life more meaningful, the peace,more prominent...I'm happier today than I've ever been! all I have to do is look in the mirror and laugh!