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I wish I could do or say something to make you feel better. You matter so much and you're such a great, amazing friend. Your yells are heard here and we're all listening. Advice isn't my forté but I truly do care. Know that, and that many many people care here - you're a huge part of this community and you always will be.
So here's a frog joke!
Why are frogs so happy?
They eat whatever bugs them!