Hi,
I'm new here and I just made my first post in the new members forum. Anyway, I guess this issue I'm having over my divorce sort of ties in with the medical problems I've been experiencing....

My husband was/is an alchoholic, but I loved him and kept putting up with it even after he relapsed after AA. It eventually got bad and he took it out on my oldest daughter (verbally) and me (verbally again) and then he had an affair. I just couldn't take it anymore and left him. I had to get a restraining order because he wasn't happy about the divorce, etc. Anyway, it's been 9 months and I hear he's doing better. So, I'm going to drop the restraining order and see if we can all get along.

Here's the problem-I'm scared #1 that he isn't changed. #2-I'm scared of how I'm going to feel. Will I be happy to see him and get sucked back in? I hope not cause I'm divorced now-even if it wasn't what I wanted. He always said we'd get back together if he'd change....so, what if? I'm really nervous I'll do something I'll regret.