I am sorry you were alone here. I am rarely on early in the mornings. I go to bed so late at night I think it is good to post here and get things out. although it may bring up other stuff I think getting it out is healing. you don't have to keep it buried deep within yourself. that is where is just sits and grows. take one thing at a time and work on that one. then let another one out and work on that etc. I am here to tell you hon it works. (((hugs)))