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My heart goes out to you .... your kiddies wont grow up with the awful things you went through, i'll tell you why .....
You are a survivor, you will make sure your children dont go through what you went through because you know it was wrong ....
your parents were the ones who were flawed, not you, I'm so sorry you had to go through it, but the positive that comes out of it is that you KNOW you couldn't do that to your babies ... therefore you have nothing to worry about. You love them, you don't treat them the same way your parents treated you ... you are doing enough to give them a good life .... you are doing your best and that is the difference ...
I worried about these issues too, because of my past .... my kids are 19 and nearly 17 and have become well balanced, clever people and are independant... they have theor problems, some maybe i have put on them, not intentionally, but they are loved and cared for and protected ..... i did my best for them and still am ...
holding your hand sweetie, please pm me if you wish ..... i have been through all of this with my t.
love you, you are not alone in worrying, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxoxo