hi poe..i dont think anything is wrong with you..i grew up in a family where hugs and emotions just were not verbally exercised or physically shown...my dad had a very serious heart attack 15 years ago and we had a second chance..to this day when we see each other there is not a single time that goes by that we dont hug, kiss and tell each other we love him..same for my mom...fortunately we had a second chance to express our feelings...sometimes it takes a tragedy for the feelings to be able to show..good luck hun and im sure she knew exactly how you feel towards her..my dad said he did even tho we never expressed it in any way