i wish i couldnt say that i understand what you feel Griffe... we seek to know what is true for ourselves and we explore what seems availalbe... one thing which really helped me was making a personal decision to care about others health... all my life i'd been told i was selfish and thinking of only myself.. i tried to think of all the times i'd forgotten when i was unintentionally selfish.. i searched so deeply to discover the truth about my own soul and when i got to the core i discovered that i had never intended harm to any others..

that when kindness to others became an important part of my spiritual belief system.. i found that by searching my own interior i found my true connection to others and the importance of each soul having the opportunity to grow, feel,learn.. harmlessness to any other (including myself) has been my driving energy as i search about this wild mystical world of hours.. harmlessness eventually leads to inner peace, inner peace eventually affects our immediate environment.. our immediate environment eventually affects the larger and the whole and so on into timelessness and spacelessness....

an inner spirit can never be killed.. its energy lives on after the bodies physical death.. some call this a legacy.. a legacy is a birthright.. the very fact that we've lived gives us each a legacy.. legacies are the stuff of life.. legacies are timeless..

praying for healing for all..