Thanks, Ozzie, for the warm welcome. it's so good to 'see' you.i hope that everything going well with you.

Thank you Cats Eye so much for relating and caring. It's good to meet you.

Thank you, __zh.
i'm afraid to call T. we saw him for about four years and it's painful to call. my little ones had a hard time with not seeing him for a long time.
The Dr did have a strange Dr covering but i don't think i can call. too hard. We're not in that bad a crisis any more. (that was yesterday). 1 day at a time. my psych Dr is helping me get disability- i let him release some info. It's really scary to do it but i can't manage anymore without help.

i get flack sometimes for writing negative things about parts. It's scary for me too because we're getting more separated. i can't read my writing later because it's so different. Then there are two or three parts that wrote in one of the threads. It's sso scary to read later. i can tell where i switched. My heart goes out so much to persons trying to live with parts.

Disability is so hard to get. i try to work, when i get there i think it's ok but we can never get there very often. i work part-time and lose all the time at work now. i used to remember a little about what i do there, now it's like going into a black hole. It's a way out of the difficulty of being home, though.

i don't make enough money to afford t.- also too many medical bills/ hospitalization bills. i've been trying to get disability for four years now. The parts that work loves her (his) job. When we saw the disability psychiatrist, he talked to the work person mostly and she's very 'together'. She has not much to do with me though. That State disability Dr thought i was born for working at that job. She was.
i'll send a PM.

Take care everyone,
kerria