i can relate. I hate change though...i fear change actually. Even things that are going to happen far in the future scare me. Like...my parents are thinking of moving further up north because my father's company wants to consolidate two stores. They are just kinda looking at houses right now...but i know that if they buy a house..i will be staying in the one we have now (they will still own this one too). But the thought that my parents might be moving away from me..well...it terrifies me. Because I'm so scared i start having panic attacks, and unfortunately my friends suffer from me 'cus i turn to them when i need to vent. I'm scared to tell my parents that I'm afraid 'cus i know they will just tell me to suck it up. -sigh- But...maybe change can be liberating? I dunno though. Anyway I'm sorry i don't mean to seem like I'm complaining. But you arn't alone in struggles. Its a scary world..i can relate..well a little bit anyway. I hope it all works out for you -hugs-