(((purple)))) its very hard to imagine that what we are saying is true for for you right now maybe, but the truth s that you are a kind and caring, hurt individual asking for care from others and there's nothing at all wrong with that.. they can show you the true beauty of inner you given enough time and assistance from yourself.. and professionals help round out your healing process.. no deserves hurt or to stay hurt.... have patience with yourself and try gently to heal... you can make it.. sending caring hugs and thoughts always