(((((((((((((((((((((((((( Miss C ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

It's so hard to hang onto T for such a long time while he's gone. I can't hang on to him between appointments sometimes.

When my T has gone on vacation and left me messages, they've seemed really helpful for a few days, and then he sort of starts to fade from my mind, and the whole therapy relationship, experience, etc. almost starts to feel like something I just made up.

BUT! This last time, when I saw T again, the connection was there immediately. I was so happy to see him, he was happy to see me, and the whole vacation kind of faded away. Other times, it took a little more work - but the connection has come back every time. AND IT WILL COME BACK FOR YOU TOO. (((((((((((((((((((( Miss ))))))))))))))))))))

Would it help to write a letter to T - not to send, just for you? Sometimes nothing helps but T coming back. And he will be back. Hang in there, even though it's hard.

(((((((((((((((((((((((( Miss ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))