i am still learning from my mistakes, and i am journaling also.

is there anything i can do, though, to help her feel that she can still trust me?
should i try to stay in contact with her?

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Some issues are too large to overcome.

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also, it is my belief that i dug this hole for myself, and that the harder it is to correct it, the better things will be in the end. i feel that this is the one thing in my life that i cant give up on. she has become a part of who i am and if i give up on her completely, it's the same to me as killing a part of myself.

I'm sorry if i am sounding stubborn or rude... i really do appreciate any advice you guys have for me