I have been dealing with depression for about 8 yrs now. Let me tell you it has been a hard road. I went from suicidal to just sad. Now, I find myself being 21yrs and I am still so sad. Is it maybe because I have been sad this whole time and I have never healed completely? I don't know what to think anymore. I get very frustrated because I can not do anything to make this sadness go away. After eight years of this I don't know how much I can take. I have gone to theraphy but I feel that it doesn't get me anywhere. I have gone through a lot but it's in the past and it still hurts very much. I have gone through sexual abuse and verbal abuse, parents' divorce, death of my grandmother, sexual abuse again. This is just the short version. I don't want to be sad anymore I have a life to live. Depression can not live me. I need some help.