Many faiths talk about a reward in the afterlife. an eternal place of Joy where there is no sickness,death or tears. That sounds great to me! but do you know what sounds better to me? the mere notion that I could in this life be a servant to the one whom will welcome me home one day and say to me "well done my good and faithful servant" that will be my reward, at least at this point thats what I think...but I also think that I'm going to find that there's more than I in all of my obsessive compulsive,manic, fantasies could imagine awaiting me.the real prize is Him! here's the bonus...I don't have to die first, I know Him now,the only barriers between us are the ones I put in the way. I'm not special or different, but i can have something special and different than the rest of the world has...so can you!