((((Der))))

I know it seems like one thing after another can become overwhelming.

Abandonment and rejection are old foes of mine also.

You know, I learned a little late in life a valuable lesson I will share with you.

You deserve to be with someone who loves you and wants to be with you.
Someone who treats you like no other. Better than ice cream!

You deserve a soulmate who will stick with you through thick and thin.
Good and not so good.

They don't appear overnight usually. You find each other doing things that might be important to the life you will have together.

But when they do show up, you know it.

They are true, authentic, loyal, and beautiful and they only see you in the picture with them. Think on these things for awhile and then file them away.
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Be gentle on yourself right now, you have had a heartache.
This was not the one.

This is the one where you are still working out your childhood with. There go the abandonment. Be glad it's over.

You do not want these experiences anymore. The negative ones that hurt.

When you are back on your feet, which you should do very soon with school and a therapist there and all... you will make different choices for yourself regarding people you let into that very personal place in your heart and soul.

They have to be the best caliber person.
You deserve this.

Wait for it.

Love,
Night

xoxoxoxoxoxox