Thanks to all of you who have expressed your feelings here. I certainly wasn't looking for or even expecting any support to my actions whatsoever. This was merely an apology for wants2 but done in a public way so that others could also read it. I thank y'all for your understanding and support. Greatly appreciated.

wants2 - As I told you in PM, you are a wonderful and gracious person to accept my apology so quickly and willing after the comments that I made. It is not everyone who would be able to do that. I was very pleasantly surprised to receive the warmness of your words. To be honest, certainly not what I was expecting. That is not a comment regarding your personal character but moreso to my past experiences of my continual screw-ups where the other person would reject me at this point and walk away from the friendship that had previously formed, regardless of the length of time it had been for. It's happened to me more times than I care to think about. It is refreshing to see that there are people like you, who are far more empathetic, compassionate and understanding. I've always liked you and that never changed even with the things that I had said in your thread. You've always been very supportive of me and I've tried to be there for you as well and will continue to do so. You have shown me that you are a lady of great class, who can see the situation for what it was on my part, where I was separating the actions from the person, not something that some find easy to do. I'm glad that you are not rejecting me for that would certainly be my loss.

I have learned through this process that I need to stop jumping to conclusions about things that people say and/or do and not form my own opinions as to what the meaning of them is because I see only through the eyes of my very distorted negative thinking. That's why I'm participating in a CBT group therapy now 'Mind Over Mood'. Hopefully, I will find some success in this group setting that I was unable to find when I did it before in individual therapy awhile back. Of course, I am not perfect, and I will probably screw up a time or two but I sure hope for the better part to ask the other person what their motives are / what was meant by their words, etc before arriving at my own often distorted conclusions. So, at least there was a lesson learned for me in all of this. So something positive came out of it.

Again, I want to thank you for your being able to see what my perspective was and your graciousness in being able to accept my apology so quickly and not being angered by what I had done. You're a good person and I'm glad that I have the opportunity to get to know you better and to continue to offer you support when you need it. You're certainly a cut above the rest in my past who went running for the hills. For once, I'm not being abandoned. You'll never know how much that means to me to get a 2nd chance. I shall not let you down. Luv ya sweetie and always did and I'm glad that you could see that regardless of what my actions were. You too were able to separate the deed from the doer.



Now, I'll read your 10 reasons list and see where they most apply to me. I'm sure I personally have a lot to work on.

Luv ya, you're one in a million!!!