your symptoms sound familiar to me in a lot of ways, not all of them, but still. i've also been in the position of driving people away not because i didn't like them but they thought i didn't because i was acting so weird thinking they wouldn't like me. I have a diagnosis of OCD and take prozac now, which has really helped. It's not an 100% turn around but a lot of the burden of being me has been lifted.

i guess i don't really have a point but maybe it gives you food for thought. when i first started reading OCD forums earlier this year it was a revelation to me that so many people thought the way i did.