when i have been talking to her recently, i have begging, even if it's what i really want to do. i've been forcing myself to not bring up the past, because when i do, it never ends well.

when she told me that she had tried drinking, even though i wanted to just... well i dont know what i wanted to say to her when she told me.. something along the lines of "what... why... why are you doing this?" i just had to play along and instead, i just acted like i was excited for her...

when this guy is gone for basic training, they wont be able to communicate for quite some time, and classes will have started up again, she and i are still taking similar courses and are bound to share at least one class together. we usually car pool there, before all of this... what should i do about that? what i see it as is an opportunity to build trust... am i right in thinking that?