my head is spinning ..... spinning ..... everything is making me want to scream ... people talking .... the tv ...... the dog barking ..... i want to scream ......

I think hospital triggered me ... i dont have therapy until next Tuesday .......

I'm in pain, i'm so so tired ....... i had the night from hell last night in hospital ..... i hate being patronised, left alone when i'm upset, hate being me ... i was a 15 year old last night, scared, upset, sobing,alone and i didn't know what to do ...... how pathetic is that for a 43 year old woman ... anyone in their right mind would have ASKED for pain relief, not me .... i was too scared ..... J