I'm still awake, determined not to sleep. Just was doing a net search on the phobia item in my dream. It's creeping me out. I can't even read this stuff anymore. I can't analyze this dream by myself, just reading about the symbols is too triggering. I give up on the analysis part. I've just gone through an extremely hard emotional week, it's probably related to that cuz there are ongoing emotional issues to deal with still. I even had a very creepy spiritual thing happen on Wednesday that scared the crap out of me. I found out on Thursday that my niece experienced the exact same thing in the same place as I did the week before but was afraid to say anything out of fear of sounding Just too weird and freaky. I am determined I'm not going to sleep.

I'M NOT!!!

I'm sooooooooo tired, too tired to even sit up anymore. I want desperately to lie down but I don't dare. I would fall asleep within a few seconds and I can't do that, I won't. How long can I possibly force myself to stay awake? And I'm still literally shaking from fear. DAMN phobia.