Thanks, Lenny and Fuzzy.
Today, at work, I found myself wishing I hadn't posted about this. It seemed trivial and embarrassing to me to have written here about it. Just goes to show how comfortable I am to reveal such things here on PC, which I don't do in my daily life with other acquaintances!
It is what it is and what it has been for me all these years...an escape of sorts....But now it has peetered out, and I'm fine with that. No one has been hurt, and he is still a friend.
Patty