IN short
-friends going through some drama and stuff so i feel very lonely
-I feel dead..I even met a new person and my smiles and laughs felt extremely empty
-still feel a stab in my heart when the person I feel so in love with doesn't seem to care
-I have no energy or enthusiasm about my senior yr..and I feel like everyone's on fast forward and I'm on slow-mo
-I'm in a "emotional disturbed"(yes that's what it's called)..program at school..so technically it's Spec. Ed. and ppl idk are making fun of me..or avoid me..it's been going on since 9th grd but it feels worse now

I've been crying just about all day I just needed to vent I guess