Lost, I can relate to being housebound. I only leave my house when I have to. Just going down to the mailbox can be difficult for me. Whether it is good or bad, I am forced to go to work everyday. I often end up in my car hyperventilating, but I do manage to make it most days. It is always such a relief to get home. Thank goodness for the net, that is where I get a lot of my social needs met. I don't feel as anxious when I am online. My backyard is an absolute jungle because I never go out there. Keep working at it--it is possible to overcome your anxiety. I use a lot of deep breathing and meditation. Yes, my meds and sleep play an important role in how much I can get out and how much I can read. I am like you, when I am not on my meds or feeling real anxious I can't make it through a single page. Right now, I am doing pretty good though.

I will keep you in my thoughts.