Xylia,

It is not "stupid and insignificant" to hurt over bad memories. Those girls committed a crime - assault, against you. They were bullies, cruel bullies.

It is just such a horrible feeling when the whole world seems against you and you have no one to run to for help. I went through verbal bullying at times and abuse at home and felt completely alone and miserable. For some reason I got angry at myself, rather than at the bullies, which seems wrong to me now.

I'm glad you came on here and let us support you. That is a positive thing to do. There are people here who understand and care.

I wish I knew something to tell you that would heal the hurt you feel, but I'm not that powerful. God was the one who helped me heal from so much of the abuse and pain in my past. He helped me know that I am loveable and that I am not really a problem - I had a problem.

You are an OK person, you are not the problem - you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time and I'm sorry that happened to you.

Leslieann