(((((((((((KanyaxRose)))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry you're struggling right now. You do need someone to talk to though. Tell your mother that you want to see a different therapist, or talk to a school counsellor instead. Either way, get the help you need right now. You don't need a label, but you do need outside help if your family isn't going to be extraordinarily helpful with this.

Also, even though you haven't posted in ED - 312 calories is *not* enough to live on, even though your mind might tell you otherwise.

You haven't failed. You had a momentary setback. Now get back up and try again to resist. Learning helpful coping mechanisms instead of SIng or restricting food is hard, but it can be done. Just takes time, and some sort of professional help.