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Funny how your mood impacts how you see your world. I know the feeling of having life in control one day, and the next day you're back in the deep pit. It's the amount of times that you try to climb out that really matter. I can see that you're trying, and that's a good thing.
Self-fulling prophecy... if you think things will constantly fall again, then chances are that they will. How about instead of saying "I'm going to fail" or "I'm not going to fail" ... you say "Even if I do fail, I can always try again". Doesn't make you bad for falling, we all have done it numerous times.