Betrayal by friend or loved on is so much harder to bear than betrayal by an enemy. When the little bit of family we have abandon us or reject us it just seems like a gut-shot that blows us apart.

Even family should not betray us and tell us "we are a curse". What the blank is that all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is wrong to say that. It is cruel to kick us when we are already so far down from the pain and the past.

You do not have to believe what your son said. He is imperfect and his judment is impaired in this matter. He should stand beside you and help you stand up and if he can't do that then he should at least stay silent and not add to your pain.

Family and friends have told me much of what you wrote - except that I'm NOT the sweetest, gentlest...... I was born that way and it was deliberately beaten out of me and programmed out of me.

To survive all the abuse of your childhood - you somewhere have strengths to help you survive this, too. You don't have to pack it in and call it a day. God is the one who helped me when the abusers even accused God of being with them in their abuse. God is good and loving and kind. He won't stop caring and healing.

I've been told I'm "very complex" DID, whoopie! All I can do is keep on moving forward and breathe in and out and not quit. I care about you and think you should not quit. Don't let your abusers win!

There are people here who DO "get it", those like me who went through it also. You are not the only one and you can get to a place of peace. Just please don't give up. I care,

leslieann and the pixies