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That sounds really swell, Kiya!! I can't believe she cried when she saw you; you must have really had an influence on her life. =)

I don't think it's a problem to have felt the way you did to see her, or to have her in your life again. On the contrary, those feelings and your ability to interact in that way is a healthy sign of progress!

And I agree about your boundary situation. I'd advise cleaning beHIND the barricare, so at least it's partially clean, and still serving its KEEP OUT purpose. No excuses, Fox! Get tidying!