I started seeing a counselor a month or so ago. Have probably had 3-5 sessions with her. I want to go. I don't like going. I think i'm almost like a guy when it comes to talking about stuff.

And, I want to talk. I just don't know HOW. I saw my counselor yesterday. And, she said that since I have a hard time with talking, I could write. Or share my journal with her, IF I choose to do so. She wasn't pushy about it at all. She was cool, in my opinion. She didn't even bring up my sharing my journal with her until after I had mentioned possibly going back over my journals from the past 2 or so decades and fictionalizing the good parts for a novel, zine or something. So it's not like she was prying or anything.

But, now, I don't think I can even share anything I've written with her because when she suggested it, she said i could read it to her...just whatever parts i want to share, if any.
I didn't tell her but i don't want to read it aloud. And typing up what i've already hand written seems so time consuming.

But since I can't seem to talk aloud about stuff, what other choice do i have? HOW does one even begin talking about stuff? I don't get it...