**Self-fulfilling prophecy that if you show complacency
That you might set your spirit free
Wasted opportunity might change the paths of destiny ...**

Thank you so much for posting this in the favourite song lyrics thread.....this relates to me, i think.

some of you know that i have a job where the employers are pretty difficult to work for. it's a dialysis clinic and one patient died due to their incompetence..then we lost two more.....one unexpectedly and one from a brain aneurysm..i was close to all three. i really got down and could hardly function. then i got the diagnosis of bi-polar and new meds and that lifted me up from the bottom....

i'm constantly looking for another job....BUT until i get one, i'm going to learn everything there is to know about dialysis. i study from the tech book daily and i ask the doctor questions if i don't understand something. he's actually treating me differently..which i don't care about one way or the other...(we photocopy our time cards..that's how sleazy these people are...my check was short this week) anything that i don't understand about dialysis, i either ask or i watch the RN as she takes care of the patients. it sure won't hurt me to know about this process and it actually is very interesting to learn about what causes renal disease...diabetes and hypertension are the culprits about 98% of the time. i'm learning about the history of dialysis..the improvements of the machines and the process of cleansing the blood...each patient has their own filter and a set of protocol concerning how much "weight" is taken off during treatment. AND i've learned that i need to quit drinking all sodas and watch how much salt is in my diet and exercise more.

this thread isn't about you telling me that this is so cool that i'm taking the lemons that i've got and making lemonade...it's about all of our "wasted opportunities" that we didn't waste..think about what you've changed lately when things didn't go well...how you recovered and made it work....it can be anything. and we can celebrate this because we already have enough to deal with . (of course, you CAN tell me i'm cool.....all positive affirmations are accepted here. ) my point being is that we make recoveries more often than we give ourselves credit for. Ray inspired this post....her take on this site really made me think....i don't think that i would have done what i'm doing..without psych central. this place gives me the opportunity to run things by others..to read how someone else is handling things and to ask questions of the posters.......

Psych Central so rocks!!