I am feeling quite depressed today. So depressed, in fact, that I called in sick to work. I need to talk with someone. I am not calling T because even though he's checking his messages while away, he is not doing so with frequency. Also, I am very sensitive to the fact that he is away, and I don't want to bother him. Besides, it is only four days until he comes back; five 'til I see him. I just think I need to talk with someone a little bit.

I thought I could call my marriage therapist. I like her a lot, and she know a lot of what goes on with me. I think I would feel comfortable talking with her for a few minutes if it was okay with her.

So far I have called twice and hung up before the message machine even beeped.

This is hard.