I am sorry you are hurting ((((((((((((( purplebutterfly )))))))))))

I know it's hard but you need to try and distract yourself from this, not by cutting, but by doing something that will take your mind off it for a bit.

Is there anything you like to do? Listening to music, doing crosswords, reading a book, watching a movie. I know you will not feel like even trying some of these suggestions but please have a go.