thanks for your support you guys. yeah cindy you are so right. i know that i have to take my meds because they are what keep me grounded. it's these freaking bipolar swings, when i feel on top of the world, i think that i am invisible and i can do things on my own and lose sight of reality. i know i have to focus on the light on the other end of the tunnel. thanks so much for the love fuzzy, right back at ya hon.