(((((( Pinksoil)))))) I'm sorry your going thru such a hard time. I really do encourage you to call your marraige T again and leave that message. You must need to talk to her otherwise you wouldnt keep doing it or thinking about it. I've been in your place many times, and it always feels better to call.

What do you feel is stopping you from leaving that message ?
And how can you work thru that to get the help you need atm?

I hope you can do this. I am here if you need to talk. I am a good listener.

Take care ok

Hugz
Beth