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Hang in there, sweetie. You're doing really well.

You know, sometimes I really regret reaching out to T when we are apart - sending an e-mail or whatever - because I am taking such a big risk. What if he doesn't e-mail back? What if he e-mails back but sounds unfriendly? What if he e-mails something and I misinterpret it? It's getting better, but when it was a more unfamiliar thing, it was often upsetting. And I would drive myself crazy - because I wanted SO badly to reach out to him, but then the SECOND I did it, I would start worrying and regret it. Oy! THERAPY!!!!!!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Mouse )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) This feels bad, and hard. And it will work out.