if these irl people that pretend to care would leave me alone for a bloody second the deeper the better. things are too screwed up and I realize I just annoy the hell out of people and when they say otherwise it's to be polite. don't matter, never did, never will. should crawl into a %#@&#! hole and fade away and swallow all the %#@&#! leftovers of my pills that have caused all this &^!@.