Griffe,

Those children need you.

Kate needs you strong when she returns.

You will need to try hard and calm it down, take it down a bit, and get things in order to make it a healing place when she returns.

Start by taking care of yourself, and embracing the duties of taking care of the kids.

Then take on the house. Ask irl for a little help with this.

Keep it calm because the kids are going thru this too, not just you.

Maybe if you plan a few things for the kids, or talk to Gideon, in relationships forum (he balanced things while his wife was in hospital) ... you can actually begin to bring some peace into the home.

If you set your priorities up, write everything down if it helps (does me) and follow what you can, check off what you do, you can get out of the hole instead of going deeper.

Remember this, you want Kate to want to come home and feel better.

Give her the chance by applying yourself 100% to creating the envirment she needs - and the children need.

You can do it.

when your mind starts to lie to you, telling you to give up, just resist and keep pushing forward ... tell yourself over and over that you are not going backwards, you are going the other way - forward - to a healthier life, one step at a time.

Remember, you are going the other way! So Kate can come home and get well and the kids can be feel safe and secure.

You can do it.

Ask for help irl if you need some, even a local community center might help with kids or house. Seek out what you need.

Love and Peace,
Night