i have bad pain again, same place .... have to pick daughter up from work at half past midnight so cant have any pain killer til then they make me drowsy ..... husband at work real early in morning ... i wishi had a scalpel to cut the darn thing out myself ..... i am getting so worked up about this and i cant go in hospital again ..... trying to breathe and calm down ...... i will take pain meds and anti anxiety meds when i've picked Dani up and go to sleep ..... i cant stand much more of it .....
i cant tell anyone about the pain .... they're all so sick of me. I'm sorry if you're sick of me too ... it just helps to write it here ...... my head is telling me thingsand i know they're wrongbut it goes on and on and on. i wish there was an on/off button .../