Every thing right now seems to be falling apart. Right now i just feel like there is no end to the barrage of crud i have to deal with and although i know that eventually its gonna get better....i feel like its not going to. I feel trapped and lost and really unsure of everything around me. I know i have a decent life, i live with my parents and i receive a lot of things that not everyone does...but some how I am still upset on the inside.

right now my main issues are:

- stress dealing with school
-Stress deling with balancing school/work/home/ family
- Frustration dealing with my sister
-then over all feeling like a failure or simply inferior to everyone
-then one last issue is dealing with a guy...sorta a strange issue

The last issue listed is somethings i really feel unsure about. The situation is complicated and sorta irritating to me. A guy i dated last year contacted me wanting to go out again...but the main reason i stopped seeing him was because...well he couldn't keep his hands to himself. Part of it. -the hugs and cuddling- was fine. But then his hands began to wander around, and i thought it was funny at first...but then it got way out of hand, and so i began resisting and sorta trying to stand up for myself. In addition he always seemed to mess with my mind. He would tell me things, and insist that i believe them. (things like that he was psychic or that my number was 35, or other strange things he would tell me that were sorta half funny half creepy).

Anyway...i sorta wanna go out on a date mostly 'cus i feel like I'm always cooped up at the house studying or working. But..i really don't want to get hurt again. Then the other problem is that... i have a super hard time with telling people something that might hurt their feelings.

Anyway...sorry i know I'm probably complaining. I Just feel like so much is going on right now that i just need to talk about it with someone...and just get my thoughts organized in my head.